God's Got This.
Looking back on this week kinda makes me want to laugh out loud at my own worry. So many times I tell other's 'don't worry, God's in control of what's going on, and He see's what you cannot- the outcome. And guess what, it's good. So let go of your worry, and know that God is in control.'
I think God was trying to give me a little bit of my own advice this week. First off, it was bills week, so my finances were already pretty much spent. You know those times, where EVERYTHING runs out at once (lotion, shampoo, conditioner, soap, laundry detergent...) That was also this week. So after buying those things I was very low on money for the week, and making sure I didn't overspend. I'm working on a few paintings for people, and needed some paint colors because I ran out. So I went to Michael, and bought the cheap paint- but at the counter my card was declined... and I had no cash on me. I ended up borrowing from my India savings account, and writing down an IOU to remind myself to pay it back.
To be honest I always have just enough money- not an over abundance, but enough to live on and not stress. I hardly ever think about my money in a stressful way, because I know by 'planning' I will just stress myself out. God taught me when I moved out to trust in Him, and when He calls me somewhere, He will provide.
My job as a photographer, I never know exactly how much money I'll be making for the week. But I know when God called me to move out and live where I live now, my finances did not agree with it. There was no way I could afford it. But as I was Journaling and talking to God I felt Him say He would provide, I just have to step out in Faith. So I did... and He did. :)
So, as I remembered that this week, I still began to have that bit of worry creep up on me. I never 'freaked out', but I'm so use to not having to worry about my finances, that it was just weird being a bit worried this week, esp when my debit card declined. I usually just have a peace about what to spend money on, and what not to (for example, when friends invite me to a movie... if I have a peace about going, I'll go, but if not, then I won't... same with shopping in general.)
Well Friday came (payday), and not only was my paycheck a bit bigger than normal, but I also received a final payment check in the mail for a wedding I'm shooting next weekend in Georgia. As I was at the bank, filling out my deposit slip, I looked at the total and realized that the total deposit this week was the LARGEST deposit I've ever made in my life. Now, it wasn't some crazy huge amount, but for a normal weeks deposit, it was definitely the biggest I've ever gotten to write.
I just wanted to laugh. The one week I get a little stressed out, and feel as if my spirit is saying 'God, are you sure you got this?', I look at that deposit slip and felt the Lord say, 'Oh yes child, I got this.'
I think God was trying to give me a little bit of my own advice this week. First off, it was bills week, so my finances were already pretty much spent. You know those times, where EVERYTHING runs out at once (lotion, shampoo, conditioner, soap, laundry detergent...) That was also this week. So after buying those things I was very low on money for the week, and making sure I didn't overspend. I'm working on a few paintings for people, and needed some paint colors because I ran out. So I went to Michael, and bought the cheap paint- but at the counter my card was declined... and I had no cash on me. I ended up borrowing from my India savings account, and writing down an IOU to remind myself to pay it back.
To be honest I always have just enough money- not an over abundance, but enough to live on and not stress. I hardly ever think about my money in a stressful way, because I know by 'planning' I will just stress myself out. God taught me when I moved out to trust in Him, and when He calls me somewhere, He will provide.
My job as a photographer, I never know exactly how much money I'll be making for the week. But I know when God called me to move out and live where I live now, my finances did not agree with it. There was no way I could afford it. But as I was Journaling and talking to God I felt Him say He would provide, I just have to step out in Faith. So I did... and He did. :)
So, as I remembered that this week, I still began to have that bit of worry creep up on me. I never 'freaked out', but I'm so use to not having to worry about my finances, that it was just weird being a bit worried this week, esp when my debit card declined. I usually just have a peace about what to spend money on, and what not to (for example, when friends invite me to a movie... if I have a peace about going, I'll go, but if not, then I won't... same with shopping in general.)
Well Friday came (payday), and not only was my paycheck a bit bigger than normal, but I also received a final payment check in the mail for a wedding I'm shooting next weekend in Georgia. As I was at the bank, filling out my deposit slip, I looked at the total and realized that the total deposit this week was the LARGEST deposit I've ever made in my life. Now, it wasn't some crazy huge amount, but for a normal weeks deposit, it was definitely the biggest I've ever gotten to write.
I just wanted to laugh. The one week I get a little stressed out, and feel as if my spirit is saying 'God, are you sure you got this?', I look at that deposit slip and felt the Lord say, 'Oh yes child, I got this.'
Yay God! :) I love it when He shows off like that. Praying for you! Sorry about cancelling coffee tomorrow. Maybe another day?! Oh! And we're super stoked about pics in a month! Woohooo!
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