Stepping Out
My relationship with God has definitely grown from Salvation, to Religion (relying on myself to do what's right and what's wrong, trying not to 'sin', and do good things, read my Bible, pray, ect), to rock bottom (religion brings death), to hearing God's voice at rock bottom, and then growing in a relationship with Him over the past 2 years.
Not just a relationship... first it was small things- hearing Him every now and then... but always praying and knowing He was there. I just didn't know how to really listen for Him. Then it went from the small things, to a friendship. Getting to know who God really is, who Jesus is, and who the Holy Spirit is. This year that friendship blossomed into a head-over-heels love relationship.
Learning to hear God is amazing... I realized today I pretty much talk to Him almost all day long. I was also thinking how lucky I was that God would want me to go through a few years of singleness to draw me THIS close to Him. I feel like I have another year to come, and it actually saddens me to think that it would possibly be my last year of singleness... what if it is? It's kinda scary to think about. I cherish these years of growing closer and closer to Jesus. I look forward to meeting with Him and hearing what He says about my day- and even about other people I meet. When praying for people He will show me things (occasionally), that will literally break the enemy off of people. One- I live for this- bringing FREEDOM and REDEMPTION to those the enemy has oppressed for so long. HUGE part of who God made me. Two- I feel so incredibly blessed in times like these where God chooses to use me in such a big way to bring Him glory!
Lately God has been teaching me to dance when I worship Him. It's amazing. I feel like He is about to do a huge movement in the church though dance. I do this mostly in my room, but my friends know I have a passion inside to dance for God.
I remember when I first started going to church, I was too afraid to lift my hands during worship, although the longing was there. When I finally did, I felt so much freedom and joy from the Lord! That's about how I feel now with dancing in church. I want to so badly, but it would be a HUGE step for me. And as I was thinking about this, I felt like, what if people do think I'm crazy? Well, if I do just start dancing in church (I'm talking in the isles- modern type dance), I believe it will bring more freedom, more healing, a release of the fear of man and the fear of people looking at me. I want to see people transformed from the death of Religion to a love Relationship. I want people to rely on God like newborns rely on their mothers. I want to rely on God like a newborn relies on it's mother! I might regret writing that one day, haha.
Okay, it's way past my bedtime, and I'm done rambling :) If you're reading this I pray God will bless you in a major way today
Not just a relationship... first it was small things- hearing Him every now and then... but always praying and knowing He was there. I just didn't know how to really listen for Him. Then it went from the small things, to a friendship. Getting to know who God really is, who Jesus is, and who the Holy Spirit is. This year that friendship blossomed into a head-over-heels love relationship.
Learning to hear God is amazing... I realized today I pretty much talk to Him almost all day long. I was also thinking how lucky I was that God would want me to go through a few years of singleness to draw me THIS close to Him. I feel like I have another year to come, and it actually saddens me to think that it would possibly be my last year of singleness... what if it is? It's kinda scary to think about. I cherish these years of growing closer and closer to Jesus. I look forward to meeting with Him and hearing what He says about my day- and even about other people I meet. When praying for people He will show me things (occasionally), that will literally break the enemy off of people. One- I live for this- bringing FREEDOM and REDEMPTION to those the enemy has oppressed for so long. HUGE part of who God made me. Two- I feel so incredibly blessed in times like these where God chooses to use me in such a big way to bring Him glory!
Lately God has been teaching me to dance when I worship Him. It's amazing. I feel like He is about to do a huge movement in the church though dance. I do this mostly in my room, but my friends know I have a passion inside to dance for God.
I remember when I first started going to church, I was too afraid to lift my hands during worship, although the longing was there. When I finally did, I felt so much freedom and joy from the Lord! That's about how I feel now with dancing in church. I want to so badly, but it would be a HUGE step for me. And as I was thinking about this, I felt like, what if people do think I'm crazy? Well, if I do just start dancing in church (I'm talking in the isles- modern type dance), I believe it will bring more freedom, more healing, a release of the fear of man and the fear of people looking at me. I want to see people transformed from the death of Religion to a love Relationship. I want people to rely on God like newborns rely on their mothers. I want to rely on God like a newborn relies on it's mother! I might regret writing that one day, haha.
Okay, it's way past my bedtime, and I'm done rambling :) If you're reading this I pray God will bless you in a major way today
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