Dreams.

The past 2 nights I have had some crazy dreams. (In case you didn't know- I'm a really big 'dreams' person. I love talking about my dreams, praying about them, and even interpreting them). The cool thing about the past 2 dreams I've had, is although the dreams were pretty stressful, my devotionals for the 2 days that followed each dream seemed to be clearly about the dream that I had. It was crazy. Here, I will explain each dream… and just so you know sometimes my dreams can be a little crazy.

Dream one… the night of November 15th, 2010.

I was in a conference, and I had to speak. There were thousands of people there, and even though I recognized them in my dream, only a few of them were people from real life, but I won't mention names. I was really nervous about speaking and I really didn't want to. It was a christian conference, and I knew at least half of the people there hated me because they knew everything I had ever done in my past.

The dream actually started a few hours before the conference began, and there was a guy there who tried to sexually assault me before anyone else had gotten there. I lost all of my clothes, and some girls (which at the beginning of the dream hated me) now took my hand and told me they were so sorry. I still had to speak in a matter of hours. They wrapped a towel around me, and I had to hold on to dear life to that towel while people started coming in. Some made very mean remarks about me speaking. When I got on stage, I was so afraid of the towel falling off that I kept forgetting what to say. The guy who tried to sexually assault me was in the ceiling, and every time I spoke, he would call out something to make fun of me and everyone would laugh. The things he said wouldn't just make fun of me- but literally throw my past into my face. After 3 attempts to speak, with him interrupting me, I spoke into the microphone and said, "I'm sorry… I just can't do this." and walked off stage. Everyone boo'ed and a cheered at the same time- just glad to be rid of me. Right before I spoke a guy walked in late. As I left, only my friends that saw the incident with the guy before the conference left with me. But the guy who got there late walked out and met me outside and told me how sorry he was that I had to go through that. He had no idea how I put up with that. I thanked him for being so nice and woke up.

I talked about this dream with a friend who lives with me named Rebecca. She said it shows I have a fear of being exposed (the towel), and there is parts of my past I just haven't let go of yet. I need to gain confidence in who I am in Christ rather than who I was as Cami.

Now, here was the scripture from my devo the next day:

"But recall the former days when, after you were enlightened, you endured a hard struggle with sufferings, sometimes being publicly exposed to reproach and affliction and sometimes being partners with those so treated. For you had compassion on those in prison, and you joyfully accepted the plundering of your property, since you knew that you yourselves had a better possession and an abiding one. Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised. For yet a little while, and the coming one will come and not delay; but my righteous one shall live by faith, and if he shrinks back, my soul has no pleasure in him. But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls."

Hebrews 10: 32-39

This scripture actually saved me in my dream the following night.

Here it is…

Dream 2… the night of Nov.16, 2010…

I was going to India, and I saw in the paper where they were killing M's over there. I prayed that my mom wouldn't see the paper, (we were in the airport) but she did and started crying. All of a sudden we were both in India, and at an arena where all Christians and M's were being brought before the 'king of Inida'. They had huge dinosaurs there where they would thrown the Christians into the arena wearing only a small shield and small sword. Of course the dinosaur always won. The daughter of this king befriended us and wanted us to watch, but I couldn't. I knew I would be in that arena soon when they found out I was a Christian. So, unknowingly I tried to hid it. I asked the princess how they found the Christians. She said "oh I just acted like I was interested in becoming a Christian and when I earned their trust I brought them to my father." Her father, the king, was very scary. I couldn't even look at him. I realized I was trying to hid my faith when my mom said 'lets pray'. Immediately I whispered, "don't say that!" but right when I did I remembered the scripture I read the day before (in real life), in Hebrews 10. 'We are not of those who shrink back". All of a sudden I was standing where Christians were being led into the arena, and I was not afraid anymore. I actually got happy and said (not sure if I said this out-loud or in my head): "We will not shrink back" and it was as if the dinosaurs disappeared- and a few seconds later, I woke up.

Here is the scripture in my devo the following day:

"They will lay their hands on you and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues and prisons, and you will be brought before Kings and governors for my name's sake. This will be your opportunity to bear witness. Settle it therefore in your minds not to meditate beforehand how to answer, for I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which none of your adversaries will be able to withstand or contradict. You will be delivered up even by parents and brothers and relatives and friends, and some of you they will put to death. You will be hated by all for my name's sake. But not a hair on your head will perish. By your endurance you will gain your lives."

Luke 21:12-19.

Reading Both of these passages together, I really feel God is trying to tell me not to be afraid, and not to shrink back. Both scriptures talk about Endurance.

And this is why living life for the Lord is never a dull moment- even when we sleep. lol